One Step Forward

24th of March.

-our day.
-was once our day.

It was the 3rd Friday of the month of March.

I used to attend mass at Sto. Nino Church every Fridays of the week. Thereso, it was after my class and I was with him and he decided to attend the mass with me. However, it was already late in the afternoon and going there would cost time and more, it would be very crowded at this time of the day. I felt bad that I might not be on time for the mass and so he suggested that instead of going to Sto. Nino, we'll go to The Lady of Mount Carmel Church (known also as the Carmelites Church). I, haven't been there, excitedly agreed. And so we went to Mabolo and there, attend Mass at Carmelites. After the Mass and after saying our prayers, he brought me infront of the image of Mama Mary and he said, "Mama, this is Jlyn. The one I told you about." He hold my hand and he said "Baby, this is my Mama Mary." (We used to call each other "Baby" even before we got together. We were friends and used to teasing each other that name. There is another story for that one. haha) It was a very awkward and nice and sweet and all i feel was blood running to my face and next I knew, I was really blushing. I don't know what to say and I don't know what he is up to. It was an image of Mama Mary and we are in the church and I know for sure some people had heard it or were listening to us! (paranoid! hahaha) I was speechless but yes, I was so kilig that time. I asked him why he did that. And he said, "I told her about you. About Us. And I told her how much I like you. But I am not sure if you like me too. I prayed all the time to her. And she listens to me all the time too. And I asked her that if you are the girl for me, she'll give me a sign." Weird, I thought. "A sign?" I asked. He replied, "yes, a sign. A sign that if you come with me here, in her home, you are the girl for me. That she is happy for us. It sounds impossible at first but yes, it happened. You are here with me now, in front of her. So you're my girlfriend now." He was smiling, and I know he was very happy. I was, too. And that was the start of it all.

That happened today, 3 years ago.

Honestly, we're not on that "will you be my girlfriend-yes, i do" show! Too opposite from what I expect my first relationship would be. haha But then, that was it. That was the start of a story which lasted for three long years. Three years of happiness and joy and love.

Looking back, so many things happened. So many changes took place. But I never regret anything and everything that happened to us. I was so happy, really happy with him. We both love each other, I hold that true. Though no one understands, I know in our hearts, we will always be there for each other. And yes, this is all part of the past now.

Though I am still hurting, and in deep pain, I know and I believe all this happens for a reason.
Though I may not see it clearly now, I know my GOD has a purpose for me.
Though every night I still cry, I know one day these tears will all turn to smiles.
Though my heart is still bleeding, I know one day it will heal.


Just one day at a time, jLyn, and everything will be ok.