Love can give you ULCER!!

1st day of March

I watched the movie "You Changed My Life".

I have a friend who really pushed me to watch this, she said I have to see the movie.

And so I did.

It was the story of a couple (Miggy, characterized by John Lloyd Cruz and Ladia, by Sarah Geronimo) who's so in love with each other yet their careers are leading to different paths and their relationship suffers from the pressures of being apart.

The movie follows the romance between the rich boss Miggy Montenegro and the middle-class employee Laida Magtalas. (This is actually a sequel of the movie "Very Special Love".. hmp, see? fans kau ku noh!? hihih) This time around, Laida and Miggy now savor the sweet moments as a couple. But as time goes by, their love is put to further tests brought about by the differences of their worlds. They both later realize that a commitment is not at all a bed of roses but a road filled with lots of sacrifices. Laida tries her best to make the time for their relationship, while Miggy finds himself caught between his ambition and his personal happiness. During her lonesome times, Laida seeks comfort from high school sweetheart Macoy. On the other hand, Miggy meets Cristina who reminds him that once you make the choice, there will be no turning back.

Though it was a good one, and yes, I'm a super John Lloyd fan (go laugh at me!!)

personally I don't like it..

Why!?

Because it simply reminds me of what I was (yes, WAS.).

And what we were.

Yes, we were happy.

Yes, we both loved each other.

And yes, it was over.

And It hit me hard.

Because I saw myself in that girl's dreams and that girl's passion and love.

I saw it in her eyes, those that glitters everytime he is around..
the way she gets excited everytime he calls her and every time they see each other,
the way she expects things, the way she believe his promises.
the way she tries to convince herself that he loves her too,
the way she blushes everytime she hears him say "iLoveyou"..
the way she understands him everytime he fails to keep his promises..
the way she adjusts to everything, eventhough she know it isn't right anymore..
the way she gets disappointed because he can't come to fetch her..
the way she waits for him to call..
the way she cries just to keep herself sane..
the way she hates him for everything he has done..
and most of all, the way she still loves him, despite and inspite it all!

That was me, that was the jLyn I was trying so hard to changed and to hide.

Not because I don't like myself then, but because no matter what I do, HE is gone.

And yes, HE made a choice.

And I know, there is no turning back.