Perhaps.

MAYBE

Maybe. . .we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Maybe . . . when the door of happiness closes, another opens; but, oftentimes, we look so long at the closed door that we don't even see the new one which has been opened for us.

Maybe . . . it is true that we don't know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives.

Maybe . . . the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Maybe . . . the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; after all, you can't go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and heartaches.

Maybe . . . you should dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you dream of, and want to do.

Maybe . . . there are moments in life when you miss someone -- a parent, a spouse, a friend, a child -- so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, so that once they are around you appreciate them more.

Maybe . . . the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

Maybe . . . you should always try to put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that something could hurt you, it probably will hurt the other person, too.

Maybe . . . you should do something nice for someone every single day, even if it is simply to leave them alone.

Maybe . . . giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart; but if it doesn't, be content that it grew in yours.

Maybe . . . happiness waits for all those who cry, all those who hurt, all those who have searched, and all those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of all the people who have touched their lives.

Maybe . . . you shouldn't go for looks; they can deceive; don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Maybe . . . you should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy.

Maybe . . . you should try to live your life to the fullest because when you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling but when you die, you can be the one who is smiling and everyone around you crying.

A true friend's advice.

Get over him. He’s not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yeah you loved him, I know that. And I know you just can’t see yourself with anyone other than him, I get that. I’ve been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah you’re going to see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, because straight up; it’s gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows you’re watching. He knows it’s killing you; and that’s why he will do it. Don’t let him get to you because that, well that’s exactly what he wants. Don’t give him what he wants. He doesn’t even deserve it. So what if he doesn’t talk to you? Do you honestly wanna be friends with an asshole like him anyway? Thing is, I know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, and really. Do you want to hear that? No. So screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry, trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who’s not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you; the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you, when he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. So don’t go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know you’ll never get. Or that IM you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He likes to pretend he doesn’t see you online, and he does it out of spite just because he knows it’s killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways, he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he only does that because he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I’m not gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It will hurt a lot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. It’s all going to hurt. Knowing you’re not the girl that’s making him smile. Knowing you’re not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing you’re not the face on his wallpaper. Knowing you won’t be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there’s not going to be anymore late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what? Today, tomorrow, next week, or maybe months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping it’s him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me; he’s got too much pride. Even if he wanted to get back together with you, he wouldn’t tell you. You’re soon going to realize he doesn’t care about you anymore and he won’t be the first person you think of calling when you’re upset. He won’t be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yeah it’s going to hurt; its going to hurt a lot. But you know what you’re going to do? You’re going to hold your head up. You’re going to show him you’re better off without him and you don’t need him in your life. You’re going to prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life by letting you go and that you never really needed him anyway.

My Silver Year

SILVER Birthday Wish?

I already got My Love and My Happiness. What else do I need? It’s more than enough for me.

What more can a mere girl ask for than to be the DAUGHTER of world's best parents, a WIFE to a man who does nothing but make her feel the most beautiful everyday and a MOTHER of a heaven's angel..

Twenty fifth

The last 25 years of my life has not been good all the time. It was so far from perfection. It has more downs than ups, should say. It was always struggle within my own self. To choose what makes me happy regardless if it was right, wrong or best for everyone. But it was beautiful. So beautiful I could not dare change a single day.

It was so long ago that I used to write to share my stories of pain and heartbreak. To pour out the heavy cross am carrying. Looking back at all the dramas and OA stories, is like looking at myself from afar, proud that it made me strong, confident and mature enough to see life as a present, a gift. There are even some stories that, honestly, reading them again makes me laugh out loud and tap my shoulder,

“Congrats, you survived sweetie.”

Now, I write to share my stories of loving, both filled with trials and triumph and living a life full laughters and tears…

This is where a new chapter begins @25.

Di Lang Ikaw - Juris

The One That Got Away

**i saw this blog from facebook.. a friend posted it.
after reading this, a tear fell.

I don't know why a tear..
what's with the article? nah.. plain text.. it's nice though..
and it's reality. it's struck me deep.

Source: The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal


In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequential become deal breakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flash point of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder,what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone,

"Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

If Only

"I would give up everything for one moment just to be with you;
for one moment is better than a lifetime without you.."


>angel in disguise<

"I have to tell you this and you need to hear it. I loved you since I met you, but I wouldn't allow myself to truly feel it until today. I was always thinking ahead, making decisions soaked with fear... Today, because of you... what I learned from you; every choice I made was different and my life has completely changed... and I've learned that if you do that, then you're living your life fully... it doesn't matter if you have five minutes or fifty years. Samantha if not for today, if not for you I would never have known love at all... So thank you for being the person who taught me to love... and to be love."

-Ian Wyndham, (If Only, Jennifer Love Hewitt and Paul Nicholls)

If only you can hear me I'd let you know, how I miss you so


Forgive me, I was blind to see I was a fool to ever let you go


Believe in me, I want you to know
That I have realized with no one else I'd rather be


But then I know that you have Found yourself somebody new


Hope I could find you in another place and time
I've proven it's true, I'm still in love with you


Every night, I've been dreaming about the time when you were mine
The memories, I will be keeping


Oh I was so wrong to let our chance go by..
So listen now, I never will deny that I have realized with no one else I'd rather be


But then I know that you have
Found yourself somebody new


Hope I could find you in another place and time
I've proven it's true, I'm still in love with you



If only, you can hear me I'd let you know,
oh how I miss you so



Believe in me, I want you to know
That I have realized with no one else I'd rather be



But then I know that you have
Found yourself somebody new



Hope I could find you in another place and time




I've proven it's true






I'm still in love with you..

Triggered by the Old Cam Pix

I was cleaning my laptop files when i saw a folder, an untitled folder, mixed with some other old school documents. Curious as I am what was in it, I opened the folder and found old pictures taken about more than three years ago. These were from my old camera phone, i hushed. The pictures were blurry then (hah!) and the colors are not so vivid, reminds me of my first VGA camera phone.. (how I remembered how happy i was having it!) That was the best shot that time, i could still recall. Whew, I forgot about this! The first picture was me with my hair uncomb.. I laughed, is this how i looked like before?! Oh, heavens! How I've changed.. The second picture was me and my best friend, at school. We were all smiles.. hmm.. Oh sure, taking pictures during class hours! hah! I miss those times! hmm.. this is so funny! Then comes more pictures of me and my friends and some taken with my niece and some pictures of me alone.. (vanity is me!) How could I forget this duh?! i wondered.. Oh yeah..

Then comes the next scene.
I stopped. Stared.

For a moment, my heart skipped a beat.

It was taken in the living room.. There was this guy, and his hair was longer then, winking on the picture.. and a girl, wearing a big shirt giving out a tongue on the picture.. They were both smiling, such big smiles.. And you could see it in there eyes, they were happy together. And i know, WAS so deeply inlove with each other.

"hey girl, wake up.. reality check! buzzzzz......"


oh, yeah where was i again?!..


Time has passed, so fast.. with so many changes.. We all looked different now, feel differently now.. Everything left are just memories of what it has been. And memories that will never happen again..

But why am I still on that past? Why is it still so hard for me to live in my present?!
I've been telling everyone I am ok, but am i?!
Can I atleast pretend i'm happy?! nah.. that I'd be fooling myself again..


haizt,

I wish there was some kind of time limit on emotions noh.. sort of like in school, wherein there's a bell that would ring at the beginnings and endings of every subject..

Maybe that way, i'd know when to stop feeling sad..
Perhaps that way, i'd know when to stop hoping and failing and hoping still..

and who knows that way, i could have kept my heart from being broken..


but then again, it's just a wish.. so.. munaxa =,(



gggrrr... I shouldn't have opened that folder!